it felt like it was going to be unsafe because it was going to be unsafe

 

sounding sensations is about expression as release

release as becoming free from 

expression as sound and/or movement 

sound and/or movement as guttural, unpolished, true 

to practice sounding sensations 

one must become radically honest

about their moment to moment felt sensations

and radically honest

in finding bravery to express these sensations

sensations as bodily feelings                 [my hip joint hurts]

sensations as sensed feelings                 [I feel awkwardness present]  

a secondary piece to the work is witness

being witnessed 

this has always been present 

and as such 

together

we have cultivated safety to be in witness of and to one anothers expressions 

today we arrived in the studio in order to render a performative offering from our practice 

we perform next month

we commenced with performance making methods

got somewhere 

realised 

that we needed to practice the practice     to ensure we were recalling honestly 

we practiced for 20 minutes 

as with every practice 

when practicing, we came to know ourselves      deeper    fuller     truer

this practice of expression, of revealing, runs wide

the practice picks you up exactly where you are       and brings you to the fore 

via honest reveal, there is no hiding                          there is only being 

                                                                                   exactly where and how you are                                                                                        

it seems that only now we realised 

that we were working to put this practice on stage 

in wider witness 

of an auditorium full of people 

this felt scary 

            ^ very 

it also felt unsafe

reveal is precious 

push to hard 

trespass to far 

and you blow your nervous system out 

this is not something we are interested in 

for we know that force is not how you welcome yourself further into that which is true 

blowing your nervous system out is reckless   -    it perpetuates only fear and distrust 

post practice 

there was a clear decision to be made 

either we put the practice on stage    -     we go on stage and practice the practice, without any performative rendering or considerations

or we render a performative offering     -     we work with and inside of the practice to cultivate a curated offering that aligns the core values of the practice

putting this practice on the stage felt like it was going to be unsafe

putting this practice on the stage felt like it was going to be unsafe

because it was going to be unsafe 

which is to say

if practise is what you desire, 

come to class

come to the workshop 

come to the safe space 

fear operates in all directions 

but there's a certain type of fear that also holds safety to lean into 

                                go that way 

                                                                        towards the goosebumps 

                                                                        away from the terror 

the most aligned leaning: 

the practice does not belong on a stage 

a performative offering of the practice belongs on the stage 

so we took of the skirts

we changed the name of the practice 

a study on sounding     a revealed study 

we decided cultivating vast amount of safety between us is the only thing that matters 

for the reveal sits between us

our next edge is between and with one another

how can we hold each another 

how can we trust one another with our honest expression

in a room full of people who have not practiced our practice with us

amongst critics who are paid to write about us

we spend the afternoon lying next to one another 

cultivating quiet intimacy 

head on the hip 

palm under elbow

fingers, interlaced